So, I did something bad last night. So it’s become somewhat of a tradition for the last two days that I put on my strap-on for the evening and the morning. I mean why should my keyholder not have orgasms? In the morning, it’s rather quick. Her alarm goes off at 6am, and I give her one or two. In the evening though, it’s a different story. Last night, I really went to town. She probably had orgasms non-stop for about an hour.
I’m not sure why, but I started to get a little angry and therefore aggressive (perhaps not having an orgasm myself though this usually isn’t my reaction) and I ended trying to put it somewhere that we hadn’t discussed. It stopped immediately, but I still regret it in the moment. It isn’t even really my thing. It just seemed like the thing to do.
After it was over, I felt like crying. This morning, I didn’t want to (and didn’t) wake her up in the usual way. Lately (unrelated to Locktober) I’ve been waking up at 4 AM. So I went downstairs and sat on the couch. I knew her alarm had gone off, but I didn’t want to go back upstairs. She says I might get an orgam tonight but I’m not sure I deserve one now for my behavior last night, nor do I think I want to give her one tonight either.
It might not even be an issue as we have people coming over tonight so we might not even have time. Right now, as I write this, I am holding back tears. I am going to continue with the points for the day, and keep chugging along, but I feel terrible.
Today’s tasks completed:
Send Bree a joke a day for a week: 3/7
Wear slave gear for a day +1
(in progress) Clean out my car